实习医生格蕾第五季

“Did you say it? 'I love you, I don't ever wanna live without you, you changed my life.' Did you say it? Make a plan, set a goal, work for it, but every now and then, look around, drink in it. 'Cause this is it, it might all be gone tomorrow.”

Warning：这篇文章涉及《实习医生格雷》1～100集的剧透，对于S5 finale只字未提，对于Finale我的建议是等到9月S6出来的时候再看，当然前提是在接下来的四个月中你能躲过其他剧透的话。

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They're never as big as you make them out to be in your head. It's the regular days, the ones that start out normal. Those are the days that end up being the biggest.

我们无法预期，辉煌之日何时将至。你觉得最重要的日子总不如你在脑海中描绘得那般盛大。它同平时一样开始得一如往常，结束时，才彰显盛大。

                                                                     ——《Grey's anatomy》ep100(中文摘自伊甸园字幕)

当2005年Alex Karev还是那个专说刻薄脏话、乱睡护士传播性病、将Izzie的内衣广告贴在电梯门上的jerk时，Izzie Stevens将自己的上衣狠狠地甩在了他的脸上。那时候我敏锐地领悟，除了那对因一夜情开始的医生外，这部叫做Grey‘s anatomy的戏应该还有更精彩的看点。

我不在乎Derek会在Addison和Meredith之中选择哪个；我不在乎Meredith是否能死而复活又有怎样的心理阴影；我不在乎George为什么爱完Meredith又爱上Izzie；不在乎Callie离婚后变成拉拉不断变幻女友；甚至不在乎Cristina被Burker莫名抛弃后爱上了现在的这位兽医，但我还在看这部戏，因为我想知道有一天Izzie会不会爱回Alex。

我是那种很死心眼的观众，在故事开始的时候挑一个故事线跟住，不到完结的时候绝不放弃。所以Denny死时我不难过，我难过的是Alex将穿着粉红色的裙子的Izzie从病床上抱下来后，她脸上还是死灰一样的绝望。Shonta Rhimes似乎只想说明一件事：他救不了她。至少那时不行。

我已经不记得后来第三季第四季说了些什么了，Addison是几时走的，Burke是几时走的，George几时结的婚又几时离的婚，Meredith的心理医生几时扭转了她的乾坤，Alex几时爱上了Addison又几时爱上了无名氏？那些情节总是轻易地被新一集的格雷洗去，没有时间回忆，只是跟着他们继续，生活。

然后，在2008年的五月，Alex没有任何先兆地哭倒在Izzie的怀里，泣不成声地重复“please,please…”，同一时刻Meredith用蜡烛围出了她和Derek的屋子，似乎大罢工给了急速前进的Shonta Rhimes一个思考过去的机会，一切回到了最初的起点。

从前，有这样一位公主，她出身在平民窟，她未成年生子，她做模特付医学院的学费，她擅长烹饪从Cookie到火鸡的各种食物，她可以一个人组织一场婚礼，她乐观开朗感情用事，全心全意地生活在自己的童话里，她爱上了她垂死的病人，她爱上了她已婚的朋友，却都惨烈地收场，直到她回头，看到那个自垃圾堆里长大的王子，一直，永远站在她身旁。

当Alex把Izzie从Denny的病床上抱下来地时候，当他们玩着用“Izzie think”“Alex think”代替“I”说话的时候，当Izzie领悟到Alex那句“我还可以再跟别人睡吗？”要表达的其实是“我们别再跟别人睡”时，我偷偷地奢望会不会有那么一天，他们穿着礼服白纱，走过红毯，走向神坛，芸芸众生仰望着他们，听着同样被坎坷造就的积极公主和消极王子对着彼此说出那句‘I do’，然后从此幸福快乐地生活在一起。

我从没想过这一天会真的出现，直到Grey's anatomy 100集的时候。

我们还是执着于童话故事。

第五季的最终集，让所有人大吃一惊。那种冲击很像NCIS去年那季结尾Gibbs的小组被拆开时的感觉。这种追看好几年的电视剧，观众往往已经把剧中人物当作是朋友，我们看他们喜，看他们悲，和他们一起经历青春岁月和人生离合。所以突然之间要失去他们（无论是一个或两个），都会万分意外，万分难舍。

仔细回顾Grey's Anatomy这五季以来的高潮与低谷，又不得不承认，这虽然是意料之外的发展，但无奈的是，这很可能是情理之中的安排。所以尽管我们可以对秋天开始的新一季继续憧憬着，但顶多只能希望编剧们不要太过狠心或者说大胆到同时更换两个主角。假如我们的愿望确能成真，那么要走的可能只是一个，我们的好人George。

Grey's Anatomy的最近两季，确实有些江郎才尽的感觉。在医学的那部分，我自己觉得最精彩的部分最初的那几季，那时Meredith们还是实习生，每天都在追求医术的幸福和挫折中挣扎着，那时Dr. Burke还在，他和Derek互相欣赏又忍不住要互相争斗，还有Lizzy要救Denny的那几集，更是尽展为医者在道德和情感上的两难。但在此之后，剧情却慢慢变得越来越像是Friends版的ER，虽然情节依然有趣，不算乏味，但那种新鲜、紧张的感觉却慢慢远去。

无奈之下，编剧们只能把更多的精力放在开发各个角色之间的罗曼史上。到现在为止，几乎所有角色之间可能存在的罗曼关系都已经被开发完毕。这个多边形的复杂程度匪夷所思，就连最不可能的Sloan和小Grey、Callie和Arizona似乎都一幅找到此生真爱的样子，而另一边的Meredith和Derek，Lizzy和Alex，甚至Yang和Owan都似乎要从此稳定下来的样子。

至于角色们的内心阴影，好像也都没有太多可以继续发挥的余地。Grey似乎已经治愈，黑暗不再而且变得敢于承诺。Yang的aggressive最近也表现不多。总算有个新来的Owan，但有戏的部分到季终时也都已经收尾得差不多。

所以，如果再不加入一些新的角色，编剧们的出路在什么地方？唯一的疑问是，本来从军的戏码已经足够让George离开，为什么后来还要加上车祸一段，这相比Lizzy生病来说确实太让人意外。莫非编剧们想看看观众在这个暑假中的反应，然后才决定是要让谁离开又或者全部留下？现在看起来，假如George离开，对其他角色们的影响似乎最小，而且说不定，这样一来能让Dr. Burke有机会回来？

纠结着看到第五季。感觉越来越淡索索。
男女主身上都有太多的缺点。在作死自己一般。
因为喜欢YANG。于是想念BURKE,
那个惹人爱的黑人。请给予YANG幸福。。

YANG， baily ，shepherd的前妻，现已成为拉拉那个叫什么的。想不起来。。George的前妻、。都是俺滴大爱。

It feels so good to stay at home all day watching the shows you like. I can't complain about anything right now. 'Cause I actually feel really good, even my toughest anxiety becomes forgettable. I've finally got the chance to finish GA Season 5 today, and after that something drove me so hard to recollect the show from the very beginning as well as recollect the pieces of my life.
　　
　　When I first started watching GA, I've never thought it would mean this big for me. Some shows just not only the entertainment of our life, they're like friends who knew you at the first place and still they're always there giving you a shoulder to cry on. They carry our memories, histories and feelings. GA is the one for me. Maybe it's not the greatest show ever, but for me it's significant. I've been growing with it. I've been growing as every character does. I've been growing with a heart dark and twisty.
　　
　　It is true that when something begins, you generally have no idea how it's gonna end. The future is never what we've imagined.
　　
　　Back from the beginning, Meredith was asking her good looking one-night-standed partner with amazingly attractive hair to leave with a corny embarrassment revealed on her smiling face; Christina was confidently asking about being "selected as the best intern" and whining about Izz's former part time job as a model; George had never gave up being nice or getting close to the others, but he was taken as a joke; Izz was told to do the rectal examination and can't help making her face when she stuck her fingers into the ass of a patient; Doc. Baily was wearing her mushroom head which is subject to very popular criticism even today; Here comes Burke, the perfect guy who resolutely left his fiancée in the wedding ceremony and us in the middle of the show...
　　
　　We can't tell who's the best at the beginning. Meredith lost in the hospital; George panicked in the surgery room being watching and betted on by the other interns, and he got a creepy name "007"; Izz got Baily pissed off by interrupting her nap for a patient who needs antibiotics rather than the reason that someone was dying; Alex was just an arrogant rude jerk.... And I've been there before, panic, complain, lose, freak out, be silly, cocky, selfish and inconsiderate... or even worse. I can't tell whether I can handle my life rightly and bravely at that time neither.
　　
　　None of them have imagined they would become family of each other; None of them have predicted those pains, struggles, changes or those life and death things injected in their life; None of them have realized and expected those massive magnificent changes happening everyday around them; None of them have ever thought they would become this strong to handle the pain, the loss and departure. Just as what Izz said at the last "you don't recognize the biggest day of your life, not until you're right in the middle of it." We don't recognize anything until we're actually experiencing the most of it. Their life keeps growing deep. So does mine. And I'm growing deep too. I don't run away like before, I face things, I stand up on my own, and I handle them. GA is showing and witnessing the histories and changes of my life too.
　　
　　In GA, hospital is a battlefield, and doctors are soldiers. They don't surrender, because they can't. They've been working their ass off for saving lives, or not that great, just for avoiding mistakes and killing. But what they're doing is sacred. All of the stories going on in this show carry only one clue ---- take the time to treasure. I'm gonna quote the last voice-over in the end of Season 5, and I'm gonna ask myself and everyone else who reads this article:
　　
　　Did you say it? "I love you. I don't ever wanna live without you. You changed my life..." Did you say it? Make a plan, set a goal, work toward it, but every now and then, look around, drink it in. 'Cause this is it. It might be gone tomorrow.


【拼写错误已修正，见谅】

第五季又变得那么好看了. 最喜欢13集, 死刑犯的那集.

结尾, mere走出来看到derek站在那儿, 那么地有风度, 似乎等了很久. 他不会同情死刑犯,但是他可以理解mere真正不能承受的地方在哪里.

所以虽然死刑犯的死看似很绝望,但我只要看到derek 站在那等mere, 就突然有种世界被打开了的感觉. 感到前所未有的温暖与宽阔.