糖果2006

Something about There's No Going Back
  去年暑假温习了一遍《梦之安魂曲》，看到有介绍关于毒品的电影，有一部是澳大利亚的电影，叫糖果。完全被那一幅merry go round 的海报所吸引，但怎么找都无果，十一假期又找了一回，寒假又找了好几次，五月份的时候一位豆友给我发了，可惜格式不对只看了前七分钟，打算在亚马逊上买原著的我在昨天生日的时候歪打正着下载了整部电影，也算是最好的礼物了。
 其实全片让我感觉最失望的是heaven太短，并没有极力渲染出两个人在毒品的欢愉中交织的太多美好，反倒是他们的争吵，嘶吼，叫喊有太多篇幅 ，不过也还恰到好处，尤其是candy抱怨电视声音，屋里光线，甚至圆珠笔划报纸的声音影响她睡觉的镜头，简直太真实。电影对于毒瘾发作的描摹更是一大亮点，candy怀孕后，二人决定戒毒，靠着Dan骗来的几千元，他们终于像每一对正常的夫妇，去大超市买果酱和饼干，搬进装有固定电话的公寓，躺上了铺有白色床单的twinbed，可惜一切关于戒毒的事都太难，密不透风的室内投射进苍白的阳光，床头的垃圾越攒越多，两个人因为全身难耐而痛苦的摩擦着，床单脏了，他们撒上爽身粉遮掩，直到有一天Candy实在忍不住拨打了她所谓的求助电话，在和Dan的撕打中流产了，这一切都是那么真实。
 之后的hell，他们回到了乡村，也许是孩子的早夭让他们的关系凝重起来，靠着每天喝美沙酮，他们还算活得清醒，没有了争吵，却只是皱着眉头的妥协，生活到了这里，再去追随那时的快乐简直是奢望，candy认识了新的朋友，他们也会一起嗑药，一起大笑，但当Dan问起candy是否和他上床时，正在作画Candy却好似疯了一般恨Dan，她开始用所有色彩鲜艳的化妆品在墙上写诗，那些颜色如糖果，本是生命的注解，如今却在墙壁上密密麻麻的排满了，倾吐着常人无法到达的忧乐。瘾君子的世界是扑朔迷离的，但当故事支离破碎成一首诗，我不得不承认candy是位伟大的艺术家，一句句无厘头的话，如一剂剂爱情毒针，不偏不倚的刺中了Dan的心脏，他又去找了Casper，而candy却因神经衰弱被送进了医院，出院后，Dan在打工的餐馆里和着阳光和苏打水结束了一切，cause there's no going back.
 对于结局，我起初觉得有些突兀，Dan以他们早夭孩子为理由拒绝了candy，独自坐在房中，但我们不妨大胆设想一下他真正的想法，如果Dan此时还没戒掉毒瘾，那candy父亲在医院的那句话一定让他想了很多，老人家只在乎她的女儿，而把他女儿搞得人不像人鬼不像鬼的，正是Dan，经过了长时间的冷静，Dan决定离开candy，让她继续自己的生活，一个不再被毒品牵制的生活，做回那个金发天使，那个完美的画家，忘掉一切，别被自己一直拖累。
但如果Dan也已戒掉毒瘾，他和Candy一样成了正常人，那现在就没有什么理由拒绝了啊，为什么要选择自己离开呢，我大胆认为，也许一开始，他们的爱情就是基于毒品之上的，又或者，根本没有爱情，首先，他们会ml，但是是在嗑药之后，他们会整天呆在一起，但是是在两人筹集毒资或是一起吸毒时，要找到一点点爱情的踪迹，还只是在heaven部分。还记得那个乡村的邻居吗，他和candy一起嗑药时，那种兴奋，快乐，与candy和Dan在一起时并没有什么不同，没有什么不可替代，只不过是两人在对方生命中有一个比较重要的角色罢了，一个糅杂了青春，毒品，迷幻，艺术，肉体，阳光，刺激等等于一体的角色，抑或是生命中一个重要的时期，那段有毒品，有糖果作伴的时期，片中那个milkman正是原著的作者Luke Davies，我在维基上查了他的故事，他是个澳大利亚著名的电视编剧，导演，他曾在八几年的时候沾染毒瘾，大抵来讲，他以他为原型写了这本书，也是为了祭奠自己一去不返的迷幻青春和曾经中过的毒，Dan对Candy说there's no going back.又何尝不是对自己的过去说再见？也许真正致幻的是他们的关系，真正有毒的是他们这种危险的感情
 街边的阳光照了进来，澳大利亚的天气真好啊，Dan饮下一杯不似之前绿色sodapop的纯净水，看着candy离去，独自坐在中餐馆，窗外一切都被隔绝了，这是电影的结束，小说的结束，那么大概也是生活真正的开始。

     第一遍看，很唯美。有关爱，沉溺，放纵，青春，责任。。。人生如初见，candy和的初遇，透明而梦幻，唯美的令人窒息。年轻而健康的性爱，充满着爆发的激情，然而天堂和地域亦不过是一瞬间而已。混乱，暴力，疯狂，咒骂。他们都没有错，错的是年轻的心根本承受不住生活和责任的磨练。
   人生若只如初见，何是秋风悲画扇。画面最后，当终于拒绝candy,动容亦不过如此。最真挚的爱，就是舍得放手，然后让你幸福。既然我给不了，那就放你自由

Once upon a time, there was Candy and Dan.
Things were very hot that year.
All the wax was melting in the trees.
He would climb balconies, climb everywhere, do anything for her,
oh Danny boy.
Thousands of birds,
the tiniest birds, adorned her hair.
Everything was gold.

One night the bed caught fire.
He was handsome and a very good criminal.
We lived on sunlight and chocolate bars.
It was the afternoon of extravagant delight.

Danny the daredevil.

Candy went missing.

The days last rays of sunshine cruise like sharks.
I want to try it your way this time.
You came into my life really fast and I liked it.
We squelched in the mud of our joy.
I was wet-thighed with surrender.

Then there was a gap in things and the whole earth tilted.
This is the business. This, is what we’re after.
With you inside me comes the hatch of death.
And perhaps I’ll simply never sleep again.
The monster in the pool.
We are a proper family now with cats and chickens and runner beans.
Everywhere I looked.
And sometimes I hate you.

Friday — I didn’t mean that, mother of the blueness. Angel of the storm.
Remember me in my opaqueness.
You pointed at the sky, that one called Sirius or dog star, but on here on earth.
Fly away sun.
Ha ha fucking ha you are so funny Dan.
A vase of flowers by the bed. My bare blue knees at dawn.
These ruffled sheets and you are gone and I am going too.
I broke your head on the back of the bed but the baby he died in the morning.
I gave him a name.
His name was thomas.
Poor little god. His heart pounds like a voodoo drum.

- Candy





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总是有那么一段发烧的时候
人生的非常时候。
佐之以海洛英的话
这个发烧可能是一种极致
这个电影的张力的明显的
而且这种张力，很迷幻，没有一定的方向，---这是作为毒品的candy？
看这个电影的时候，很容易恍惚。尤其是导演还用天堂、地狱、人间来分段，更加迷惑。
镜头干净，直接
最后的时候，又是那样光彩照人的、性感青春的candy到中国餐馆来找洗盘子的他，他哭了。
回不去了。他说
我突然想起，陈升在刘若英访谈中，说的话，表达的情绪。
candy，用所有的有颜色的化妆品，在他们的爱巢陋室的所有空的能够写字的地方，写下了他们的爱情日记，很有冲击力。一如她的离开，一如她父亲的眼神。
一如她母亲说的，你在我这个美丽的女儿身上做了什么？
所以他说，回不去了？

一部描述糖果这个感觉的电影. 两个主角的精神状态非常多变.在自信，美丽，到放纵，虚弱，崩溃，无奈.角色的塑造上大起大落
镜头时而将他们拍得很美丽，梦幻，时而又如猜火车般的堕落，肮脏.而且，如果你把它当作纪录毒品人生的电影那你就错了。它的高明之处就是，明明没有很多的故事情节，多余角色，但多愁善感的配乐将它烘托成了一个带有悲剧色彩的故事片.看完后你会觉得被它的配乐把魂魄给带走了。
糖果这个意象，就这样不知不觉地暗示出来了。以往的毒品电影，嬉皮年代也好现金也好，意象往往是psychedelic的纸醉金迷.而这是一部缠绕在爱情上面的毒品电影.于是糖果成了这种缠绕的象征。

糖真的是一样很立体的东西.明明是一样味觉物品，不过我们更多于用视觉来评价它,甚至用幻觉来美化它.糖对于我的意象太深了，它绝对是五光十色的，而且不是牙买加，或者hippies的那种colourful,在我心里，它比较像那种在阳光底下晶莹通透的一串珠珠.反正它不仅仅是CHO组成的简单分子，也决不可能是直接可以反映出的感受.


http://www.wretch.cc/blog/colleen46&article_id=9752452

Once upon a time, there was Candy and Dan.
Things were very hot that year.
All the wax was melting in the trees.
He would climb balconies, climb everywhere, do anything for her...
oh Danny boy....
Thousands of birds, the tiniest birds, adorned her hair.
Everything was gold.
One night the bed caught fire.
He was handsome and a very good criminal.
We lived on sunlight and chocolate bars.
It was the afternoon of extravagant delight.
Danny the daredevil.
Candy went missing.
The days last rays of sunshine cruise like sharks.
I want to try it your way this time.
You came into my life really fast and I liked it.
We squelched in the mud of our joy.
I was wet-thighed with surrender.

Then there was a gap in things and the whole earth tilted.
This is the business.
This, is what we're after.
With you inside me comes the hatch of death.
And perhaps I'll simply never sleep again.
The monster in the pool.
We are a proper family now with cats and chickens and runner beans.
Everywhere I looked.
And sometimes I hate you.
Friday -- I didn't mean that, mother of the blueness.
Angel of the storm.
Remember me in my opaqueness.
You pointed at the sky, that one called Sirius or dog star, but on here on earth.
Fly away sun.
Ha ha ha you are so funny Dan.
A vase of flowers by the bed.
My bare blue knees at dawn.
These ruffled sheets and you are gone and I am going too.
 I broke your head on the back of the bed but the baby he died in the morning.
I gave him a name.
His name was thomas.
Poor little god.
His heart pounds like a voodoo drum."


那些回忆 变成美妙的词语
变成五彩的文字出现在那个乱七八糟的家
Dan奋力的擦 却始终抹不去他们的痕迹

到那时我才发现candy确实是艺术家