伊丽莎白1998

I don't know what feeling is.

I don't know what touch is,

I don't know how the pear tastes,

I don't know the pain ,the hunger,the sadness,even the love...

But I'm alive as an angel to help the people who are going to die...

Until I saw your firm blue eyes staring at me carrying something called

faith.

I suddenly felt that I woule be never alive unless to feel you.

Your hair,your skin, your hands and your heart...

So I decide to give up my enternal life to fall from the sky to fall in love with you.

When I woke up,I saw the red blood and smiled...

Even if nobody understood me , I still don't regret what I have done.

I became you,I came to you, came to my own rescue to be a real man to live a real life.

All this because I love you, I want to feel you ,feel my love...

No matter what the end is ,no matter whether you love me ,no matter one day I will see you off or I will die...

I still want to be with you,because I know we belong together and we are soulmate.

Maybe is the punishment from the god,you love me and leave me,

I finally knew what the real love is and what a living life is...

All I could do is to beg them the one I used to be not to take you from me...

I can't see them as you can't see me before,but I can feel them as I am longing to feel you.

In the moring as I used to be, with all the angel friends around me,they are listening to the music played from the heaven of the god which I can't hear from now on...

But my feet are immersed in the sea to feel the wave just like the hard time without you...

I plunged into the water to feel the existence

Living for feeling...

 

 

Then a song :

Spend all your time waiting for that second chance,
for a break that would make it okay.
There's always one reason to feel not good enough,
and it's hard at the end of the day.
I need some distraction oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
some comfort here

 

 

天使，曾经停留
无聊的时候总喜欢看看曾经看过的经典电影
今天温习的是天使之城，真的很好
喜欢凯奇，很忧郁，很专著，眼睛深邃，仿佛有着千言万语，望不到边。
电影中很多地方让人深刻

天使迷茫的望着女医生，碰触是什么感觉，美好吗，真实吗，眼中无限的孤独，渴求。

梨子的味道是酸酸的带点甜，多汁的，在舌尖的触感很好

夜晚降临，女医生在屋中徘徊着，在祈祷或者只是在默念着，思念如水，那一刻，感触着，感受着，聆听着。

孤独的天使站在高高的天台上，下面车水马龙，繁华似锦。张开双臂，毅然的跳落，什么都可以放弃，割舍，那样的坚决，执着，义无返顾。虽然浑身狼狈，疼痛，但是眼神高兴的象个孩子，笑容满面，手舞足蹈，心是那样的愉悦。

第一次嗅到花香。看到颜色。第一次呼吸。第一次品尝梨子的滋；第一次感受疼痛。伤心，第一次那样的全心的爱着她，守护着她。

天使终于降落凡间。而女医生却又车祸不幸身亡。对不起，我把一起都搞砸了。
如果你早知道结局，还是否会来？会的，可以闻到她的发香。可以拥抱，体会，可以触摸就已足够。
没有碰触，感触 感受 感觉，永生又有何用

曾经看过这样一本书，女孩是一很有画画天分的画家，才华横溢，可是惟独想象不出天堂的样子。老教授气急败坏的吼着，用心，用心去看，去体会。
后来女孩恋爱了。可是病魔缠身，在思念的时候女孩总是画着男孩的脸庞。一张一张，用心至极，那一刻，天堂已不远。
再后来女孩病故，男孩子终身未娶。几千张男孩的素描散落一地，天堂已置身其中。


某个时刻，天使曾经停留，在某个角落，可能遗忘或者不曾发现，默默注视，错过，就难再寻
某个瞬间，仿佛置身天堂，只是感觉可能转瞬即失，再遇难求
有时候，期待着流星，即使只是划过。但是，掠过，燃烧的瞬间，照亮天际
Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there

so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

天使，上帝的使者，白色似乎是他们的主色调，但电影中的众天使们则是身着一袭黑衣，他们以图书馆为家，出现在每个手术室内，他们的任务就是带领亡灵前往那美轮美奂的天堂，他们会各国语言，能到达任何地方，每天早上还能在海滩聆听天籁之音，听起来这似乎是一份前途不错的工作，主人公赛斯就是他们中的一员，但上天安排了他和麦琪的见面，也许是麦琪那句“他哪也不去”打动了赛斯那颗天使的心，使得赛斯坠入爱河而不能自拔，但深深困扰赛斯的却是那条怎么也不能逾越的人与神的鸿沟，使得他只能将这份感情深深埋在心底，终究有一天他无法再掩饰内心对麦琪的爱慕，他决定在她面前现身让麦琪知道他的存在，麦琪被面前那个身穿黑色风衣，眼神忧郁的男人深深吸引，从此麦琪便在心中为这个男人留下了一个位置，可令她失望的是两人碰面的机会少之又少，但每次见面都会使麦琪心中荡漾着一种莫名的幸福感，她也爱上了赛斯，可她觉得似乎和赛斯之间永远都隔着一道墙，于是她也按耐不住心中的疑问“为什么你从不碰我，为什么你老穿着同样的衣服，为什么不肯给我你的电话号码”而她最终从她的一位叫麦兴杰的病人口中得知了原因，得知了赛斯的真实身份，令她想不到的是麦新杰曾经也是一名相貌英俊，拥有种种超能力的天使，只是为了心爱的人放弃了这一切，而麦斯杰曾经的抉择也正是困扰赛斯的难题，赛斯也像人们所期待的那样义无反顾的纵身一跃，抛弃了天使那华丽的身份，选择了凡人普普通通的生活，当赛斯意识到自己变身为“人”后竟开心的像个孩子，那份洒脱的浪漫似乎也只有在光影世界中才能存在，如果此时你以为故事会以麦琪赛斯的幸福生活收场，那你就大错特错了，当然赛斯于麦琪的重新相遇是必然的，而且是在风景宜人的塔皓湖畔，在那个风雨交加的夜晚当赛斯出现在眼前，麦琪又惊又喜，两人在那湖畔小屋里过了最为幸福的一夜，然而在次日太阳落下时，两人却是阴阳两重天，第二天麦琪在早晨去超市归来的途中遭遇了车祸，当她躺在塞斯的怀中对赛斯不停地道歉，责怪自己将这本应美好的一切破坏，赛斯则伤心欲绝，无奈命运天注定，奈何塞斯如何不舍麦琪终究离开了人世。此后的赛斯便觉得生活索然无味，而他昔日的同伴——天使，前来看望他，赛斯也倾吐了自己的内心世界以及对麦琪那份深深的眷恋，在影片最后的高潮中，赛斯来到曾经聆听天籁之音的那片海滩，当他兴高采烈的冲向海洋的怀抱时，他也明白了他并非一无所有，而是拥有了他身为天使时并不曾懂得人间冷暖，七情六欲，这才是他所一直苦苦追求的。
顺便说一句，片中的音乐真的非常好听。

Love, like the pears.
sweet, juicy，soft on your tongue .Grainy……like sugary sand that dissolves in your mouth.
It is perfect.
Seth give up his existence as he knows it, he give up the music on the sunrise, he give up eternity and become human, just for love.
Although she dead ,they don`t become forever, while it is magic.
For the touching……

I would wonder to have one breath of hair, one kiss of her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it. one
Facing the ocean, he laughes, he laughes, they laughes.
Yes ,for the touching……

We know one day we will be dying ,
We know it is life,
Just bitter and sweet,
Just dramatic and magic,
Just because we can feel it ,
Never change even with the forever.

I just want to be myself,
I just want to be together with you .
This afternoon , I just said I was escaping from the love.

No, god tell me it is wrong, immediately.
Yes, I knew.

Learn from it.
Love the life.
Life is just what happened .

我一直在问自己，什么是爱。看过了太多的定义和周围人的诠释，我还是顽固的坚持着，爱，是一种感觉。
四目相对，从对方眼中看到的就是满足；指尖轻触，全身都是痒痒的。我爱着那种感觉，爱你的感觉。喜欢你的手轻抚过我的肩膀，喜欢你的唇吻轻吻我的脖颈。喜欢两个人赤身抱在一起，紧紧相拥，感受皮肤的温柔。
我爱着你，爱着爱你的感觉，我贪婪的呼吸着你呼吸过的空气，我迷恋着每一件你迷恋的东西。你的每一滴眼泪都落在我的眼里，我的心痛伴随着你的啜泣。
纵使时间流逝，我也不会担心年华老去，请温柔的爱着我，如同我温柔的爱着你。
我爱那种感觉，只对你有的那种感觉。
爱，只是一种感觉，不是面包，不是钻戒，是我爱你的感觉。
 
如果你是一个天使，是否愿意为我坠落凡间？

每一日，他站在高处俯瞰世界，然后无能为力。
他领略人世的美丽，聆听人类的心声，然后无能为力。
他在每个人身前或身后，观看他们的人生，不能触碰，然后无能为力。
这是不是当一名天使的悲哀？

她是一名医生，与死神争命，然后无能为力。
哪怕她手里握着别人的心脏，依然无能为力。
世上有许多的事无可改变，无论是天使还是医生，他们都无法改写别人的命运，可他们却要目睹生死的上演。

后来他们相遇，有缘的人才可以感受到天使的存在，才可以解读天使的眼神，那么深的眼神：孤独，忧伤，诉说着强烈的无力感。他们像两个同病相怜的孩子，脆弱，看了太多生离死别，依然无法阅尽沧桑——有种情绪叫做悲悯。于是他们可以轻易的看到对方的眼里，那种仿若相识千年之前，如今恍然重逢的熟悉感。
男人自万丈之上纵身一跃，只为有具血肉之躯，只为真真切切的与她共度人生，他满面脏污，风尘仆仆，满心的喜悦却不可名状，那种他游荡人间天上千载都不曾有过的扎实的喜悦，可上帝手里的牌无数反复，再明媚的阳光都挡不住势必将行的死亡。他奋勇的投身尘世，她却被匆忙召唤离开凡间——生命之河极难涉过，一不小心终于让河水带走。
冰冷的海水慢慢的溢过他那凡人的躯体，经历另一番脱胎换骨的挣扎——男人最后选择做一个天使，再不会狂喜，但已然释然——至少，我喜欢这样的结局，因为不会多一场死亡。